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July Diaries

. Sunday, 12 August 2018 .


One of the reasons why I started publishing my goals for the month here - on such a public platform that anyone can see - is because I wanted to keep myself accountable. I've read it in countless articles. Apparently if you say it out loud/post about it/tell someone about it you're more likely to do it. I don't know, but you know I love reading articles that tell you how to smash a goal sooooo.




But it appears I am once again the exception to such secrets of success. Despite putting my goals out there, I'm disappointed to see that I didn't really achieve any of them last month. July was a crazy month! It was a time of grieving after losing someone close to me suddenly and unexpectedly. Work was ridiculously busy and I had done so much travel in one week, 3 plane rides in 24 hrs (one was a 20 minute plane ride and it was such a lovely way to start the morning tbh) kinda busy. Planning for unexpected overseas trips. Visitors from overseas. Also the blood moon brought on so much realisations all of a sudden. It's like I woke up one day and saw with crystal clarity the things that are blocking me and what isn't working in my life and the things that I need to let go of (even though I didn't want to yet. I was in resistance, yo). So. Much. Going. On.




I was so goddamn exhausted. I still am, to be honest. But now that the Brisbane trip is done, I feel like maybe things are calming down a bit. I just need to get back into a schedule, start sleeping at a regular time and not waking up at odd hours, eat better, and take some time out for me. Today was the first day I've had in ages to sleep in (I woke up at 8 though sooooo) and not really do anything or meet with anyone. I went for a leisurely supermarket shop, cooked a very delicious Sunday seafood fest, cleaned my room AND exfoliated! I am writing you this from the comforts of my bed where the sheets are fresh and my skin is smooth as hell and smells like coffee (Thanks, Frank).




July has shaken and awakened me. God. I'm still processing a lot of the things. But can the records also reflect that even though I didn't smash my goals for the month, I did notice that I started wearing lipstick a lot more? Not daily like I had planned, but I've definitely been more conscious about using my lipstick collection and have found myself reaching for colours I haven't worn in ages. Progress, am I right?






But it hasn't been all that bad. My high school bestfriend Lissy visited New Zealand with her family and we had a fantastic weekend catching up and exploring and eating yummy food. My tax refund came through (s/o to my accountant! I honestly didn't think I'd have a refund this year so this was a very lovely surprise). Loads of air plane rides which I really love. Catching up with friends. Celebrating my little brother's birthday with a dinner party and cooking with friends.






Full on but necessary.



I've got a lot of work to do. Inner work, outer work. I've started letting go of things and people and beliefs that I didn't realise was holding me back. I'm no longer resisting these changes. I'm carving out time to dream again. The great thing about this letting go of things business is that all of a sudden I've got free headspace again. I'm not distracted and can start making space for what I love again. Thanks for the whirlwind, July! I feel like we've made peace with each other now x


One of the reasons why I started publishing my goals for the month here - on such a public platform that anyone can see - is because I wanted to keep myself accountable. I've read it in countless articles. Apparently if you say it out loud/post about it/tell someone about it you're more likely to do it. I don't know, but you know I love reading articles that tell you how to smash a goal sooooo.




But it appears I am once again the exception to such secrets of success. Despite putting my goals out there, I'm disappointed to see that I didn't really achieve any of them last month. July was a crazy month! It was a time of grieving after losing someone close to me suddenly and unexpectedly. Work was ridiculously busy and I had done so much travel in one week, 3 plane rides in 24 hrs (one was a 20 minute plane ride and it was such a lovely way to start the morning tbh) kinda busy. Planning for unexpected overseas trips. Visitors from overseas. Also the blood moon brought on so much realisations all of a sudden. It's like I woke up one day and saw with crystal clarity the things that are blocking me and what isn't working in my life and the things that I need to let go of (even though I didn't want to yet. I was in resistance, yo). So. Much. Going. On.




I was so goddamn exhausted. I still am, to be honest. But now that the Brisbane trip is done, I feel like maybe things are calming down a bit. I just need to get back into a schedule, start sleeping at a regular time and not waking up at odd hours, eat better, and take some time out for me. Today was the first day I've had in ages to sleep in (I woke up at 8 though sooooo) and not really do anything or meet with anyone. I went for a leisurely supermarket shop, cooked a very delicious Sunday seafood fest, cleaned my room AND exfoliated! I am writing you this from the comforts of my bed where the sheets are fresh and my skin is smooth as hell and smells like coffee (Thanks, Frank).




July has shaken and awakened me. God. I'm still processing a lot of the things. But can the records also reflect that even though I didn't smash my goals for the month, I did notice that I started wearing lipstick a lot more? Not daily like I had planned, but I've definitely been more conscious about using my lipstick collection and have found myself reaching for colours I haven't worn in ages. Progress, am I right?






But it hasn't been all that bad. My high school bestfriend Lissy visited New Zealand with her family and we had a fantastic weekend catching up and exploring and eating yummy food. My tax refund came through (s/o to my accountant! I honestly didn't think I'd have a refund this year so this was a very lovely surprise). Loads of air plane rides which I really love. Catching up with friends. Celebrating my little brother's birthday with a dinner party and cooking with friends.






Full on but necessary.



I've got a lot of work to do. Inner work, outer work. I've started letting go of things and people and beliefs that I didn't realise was holding me back. I'm no longer resisting these changes. I'm carving out time to dream again. The great thing about this letting go of things business is that all of a sudden I've got free headspace again. I'm not distracted and can start making space for what I love again. Thanks for the whirlwind, July! I feel like we've made peace with each other now x

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