The Edit

Sunday, 16 July 2017


When something incredibly traumatic happens to you, it's hard imagine ever bouncing back from that situation. And I'm not going to lie, the past few months has been especially shit. I've always tried to live my life as authentic and vulnerable and open as possible, consciously making sure that what I share isn't just a highlight reel of my life, but this was different.  But I think that sometimes it's in these moments where we truly figure out who we are and who we want to be. During this extremely painful but transformative process, I stopped blogging. I stopped being who I am, I watched the light and fire go out of my eyes everyday until I was reduced to a shell of who I used to be.

All the writing was done offline - journal entries in various notebooks, the odd note saved on my phone. I chronicled everything, making sure that no detail was left unwritten. Sometimes I think it's a curse to have excellent memory - who wants to relive and remember things in painful detail But in times like these, boy do I love my vivid memory. In turn, all of the living was done offline too. Well, mostly. There were lots of catch-ups and reconnecting with loved ones, reading, reflecting, thinking, pausing, being. The freedom to just be. To discover who I was again before all this happened, to appreciate the little things and hold on to the little things because sometimes that's all you can do. 

The thing about going through something awful is that it forces you to reevaluate your life. Am I really who I want to be? If I could start over again, what would I change? How might this new life look like? Well, I'm coming to you live from this new life right and I am telling you that right now it is looking so darn good. 

During that transformative period, there was a lot of reflection. And what I found out was that I wanted to be an editor again. But instead of editing a magazine, this time I wanted to edit my life. To be ruthless in clearing out what was no longer working, what wasn't making me happy. I applied it to every aspect of my life - material possessions, mindset and ways of thinking, who and what I surround myself with. Growth is painful, and sometimes catapulted by a painfully traumatic experience, but once you come out of it on the otherside, intact and stronger than ever? You can't put a price on that. 

You'll be seeing a lot more of me from now on. There are some big changes coming as you may have already noticed with the beginnings of my blog redesign, projects coming up, and a lot of new writing coming your way. I've always been a storyteller ever since I was young. Writing is my way of making sense of the world and now it's a brand new book and we are onto chapter one. So hello from the otherside. It's good to be here X

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